First impression is in the eyes of the beholder !!

Something that has always fascinated me is the quote "  "First impression is the best" coz I keep wondering as to which part of that "debut performance" really counts !! If it is just "looks" that are judged first, I am unsure as to how the blind judge us ? Could be with our sounds and intonations ? If so , what impression would you make to the deaf ? Just curious !!

 If ..according to physics "light travels faster than sound" , then our first impressions should be linked to sight and not speech ? Well.. that's what I ve felt .And maybe that is why we feel some people are bright until we hear them speak !! 

 I also believe that, people who are unable to do speak their mind ,could possibly have nothing in their mind to begin with. Well, I've felt the same with people who do not listen. I am sure no one will be able to speak when he doesn’t listen what he hears.
Judging people from first impressions is quite simple. Like for instance, imagine you have just met a person and someone asks you , what you think of that person .Well..he can force a story out of you, and I am sure you’d succeed in telling a beautiful one, despite it being entirely out of guesswork. So from all this, let me conclude ....

 Though, in one way, it is not wrong to pass judgment from first impressions.... it still is wrong in another way...cos it doesn't really work that way. In fact, you really cant do it !! Cos what we see, is only our imagination. And so let me conclude that "First impression- is in the eyes of the beholder". Hope you guys agree!!

Long for Longing !!

This happens to me often nowadays...I feel I am worried ...but I really wouldnt know why I feel that way...cos I would know for sure that there is nothing whatsoever to bother my smooth sail...its something at the back of my mind that keeps itching....Even when I try to find out what it is , I fail miserably..........
I suppose I  worry about things that never were, and that's the worrying part. There is nothing bothering me and that's exactly what's bothering me. Coming to think of it, I'm bothered by nothing.

When it comes to my anxiety about life, what worries me most is not the destination but ...the journey . And I feel its getting twisted as I keep moving on...
 But see...I feel  I am short of something...Well , you know, I long for nothing , in fact , being  human I feel I should change myself and start longing for something, So now what I want most is to "long for something". Wanting to have this feeling of longing so much, I have come to the conclusion that  I am longing for the feeling of longing. So my problem is I long for longing ? HA HA..Guys ..Hope you have'nt gone nuts !!!!
 You see, When I started to write this post, I "wanted to long" for something and now as I conclude, I "long for the feeling of longing", I suppose I really don't have an issue. But then again, isn't this really an issue ?


Now coming to think of this...Guys !! Don't you feel that the above said lines are a bit twisted ? I mean , not very simple ? Well..You know ...Things were simple when the creator created his creations. And I suppose we guys just did a few simple things like eating, sleeping, walking, etc at that time ?

But then....different individuals had the longing to show they were different and so they mixed the above actions, grated them ,crushed , mashed and kneaded them,  to make new actions...and of course ...thereby complicating them...!!!
God !! I wonder why I wanted to blog on something I really cannot identify.  I feel blogging is an escapism for people like me who want a little bit of privacy while going public. So...We all want to be private publicly. Well...I suppose we are all crazy. A pack of  crazy guys !!! Well....That's what makes us normal again !! Ha Ha !!

Crazy Rambling !!

Coming out of the airport entrance, my driver happened to pullover suddenly towards the right without turning on the indicator lights, when I shouted that one of my papers flew out. I could hear angry shouts coming from a beautiful white Opal Corsa,  ...!!! To my ill luck, a traffic police man suddenly loomed up in front of me from God-knows-where !! My driver was trying his best to pacify the old guy , explaining to him that one of my valuables had fallen out of the car and he had no other way than do this !! The white sedan which came behind had pulled up behind us and a young lady got out wearing a blue jeans and a white kurta .To my surprise I could see the smiling young lady running towards me with open arms ready for a bear hug... ....and in a matter of minutes, I was talking to one of my very best friends from college.We had'nt met for many years now.....and somehow, we had not kept in touch over the mail even. And surprisingly...both of us chattered on like we had never been away.....

This really makes me wonder why we feel comfortable with certain people even when we meet them very rarely or have'nt met for years together...Sometimes this happens even with people whom we meet for the very first time,  to whom we feel like talking as if we had known each other all our lives...whereas we would find it difficult to open ourselves to certain others whom we would have been with us for such a long time .

Just like this, rare incidents happen at times...like love at first sight...finding a friend who understands you in such a way that she would complete your sentences for you...Well ...How do we define such incidents ?
I suppose most of us come across someone whom we seem to have known forever...it could happen between companions with perfect tuning....or even those who've been friends for long...

You may not even actively maintain the friendship ..or make regular calls or send mails...not even forwards ...
But when you meet them after that long gap...you can start from wherever you had left off. It makes you feel like you had been connected at the soul level , all along...

But there are also extremes where certain relationships are short lived and teach you a lesson . And once the lesson is learnt, it ends. It explains why you get affected by a person who fleetingly appears only to disappear in the same manner.

But some people remain for a lifetime in spite of odds.We feel like they are our real friends whom we cannot live without.



There are certain others who pop up suddenly during a difficult time and then disappear again only to reappear in some other difficulty....maybe even after years. They may lend a shoulder for you to cry on , give advice and when you have crossed the difficulty they completely disappear ...

Thinking about all these people, I get reminded of what I had read long time back, about soul mates...Does this mean that these people whose soul get connected to us could be defined as soul mates...these people who perfectly understand you...Or could be that even 'you' may be a soul mate to some other friend !!

Why do we feel this way, only with certain people ? Is it because of similar frequency of thoughts ? Or is this what we often say  "birds of a feather flock together" ? I dont think so....

Is it something connected to reincarnation like the hindu vedas speak ? Well.....I suppose soulmates come in some form or the other....going on from one birth to another ?? A brother could have been a father ...and a mother could have been a sister or a child...a husband could have been a brother...a wife could have been a mother ...

Well, just look at all your relations...those that really matter to you...What I mean is...try to actually SEE them ....Well, do you really get what I mean to say ? Well I suppose that is why ....a husband sometimes tries to play the role of a father ? A girl plays the role of a mother to a friend... a wife behaves like a child...one of the children get attached to you so very much than all the others...??

Just analyse the kind of relationship you share with the people who really mean a lot to you... If you happen to understand this... you may understand what I mean.... Maybe you will recognise your soulmates!

Sounds Crazyyyy ? I suppose this will at least help you to know each one of them better.... and maybe understand everyones actions better ..also you might know how important each one of them is ...in your life..... !!!

Goodbye till I come back again !!

It's funny, because 2010 has a special significance for me. I am always on the run and I think about how much faster time seems to go now and how it seems crazy that a few years back, I had fantasized about a life that I was not at all headed towards….

It's kind of every week turns out to be an eternity and it is too difficult to find a way out !!

Or is it so for everyone..??

Sometimes I feel I am tired running around with cancer patients… and then the rehabilitation programs , the awareness campaigns for which we travel miles on end, then again comes my doctoral research, the sleepless nights when I sit and write a blog while I download stuff for reviewing my thesis......

And the times I go crazy when I lose concentration in my work at the Research Centre….. and then the lecture classes I have to prepare with utmost care… the guest lectures at the university , my club activities…... seminars...oooohh !!! It really gets on my nerves ! Its just one person....doing all this !! And I wish I had wings and 10 hands to do things  and 4 more legs to stand on ,when these two legs of mine get tired !!

You can’t creep into bed at 2 am every night (Or is it morning ???!)

I feel I am going insane with all that’s going around …Chances are good that I won't make it this way for yet another month…So I thought I would give a pause to whatever is real crap and what I feel, is not essential for me right now.....

To start with, I would be giving a pause to blogging for the next couple of weeks  until I regain a fresh mind to write more crap!!

I am happy many of my dreams have come to fruitition and theres one more left to handle and that’s my research …!!! I’ve been working on it for 2 years now and I am too close to it but have’nt crossed the finishing line …So I need to take a step further there and a step back in the blog game !!So I am going to scratch me off the bloggers list for some time …

Thanks for reading my posts patiently over the past couple of weeks ( My stats tab shows me lots of you... butterflies.... visiting my blog-garden everyday ! Thanks a lot !!) .

It's exactly one month since I started blogging and its definitely cool to be blogging on like this (410 hits in a month ! Feels good !!),  and guys... if you don't hear from me for a while, it's only because good things are happening!!

Bye for now…

Love to all of you,

Butterfly Traveller.

Why I call myself a bad blogger !

I have had such a long week and the last thing I want to do is… be serious right now !! 

So…I thought I could make fun of myself… for just being a bad blogger...

But you would imagine....when there are lots of crap going around in this world, why on earth should I write about me and my bad blogging ? Sometimes even I feel I am getting sick of the juvenile lay-out of my blog…

 

And most of the times I do get lazy…After having sat for hours downloading stuff on microRNAs and knockout genes which make my brains shout  back at me...I would nt even feel like raising my little finger ..Forget about blogging …ooh...

But you know… Sometimes I really do get wonderful ideas which I feel like blogging on…some of them are very clever and keep me musing on it. I would feel I am exceptional to get such great ideas !! But when the time comes for me to blog, whatever I decided to post, would look like crap!!!

Then I sit and think over the issue …

Well...To be honest, I sometimes feel that blogs are a kind of shameless self promotion.. And I suppose I too am doing that shamelessly..right ? Ha ha !!

Well..here i want you to understand that I loathe being a white noise amongst lots of other white noises. But still … I don’t want to opt out of it  . I have many points to refute this whereas many reasons to have a blog!! I suppose I am becoming a parasite ? Let me think again???  Okay, not really !!! 

Any way…Now that I have started writing this….Here comes my next big problem…I need a catchy name for this post.

Do you see the point?  This whole thing is just like me being in school again ..not that I am trying to be the best or am trying to come out with juicy blogs to please everyone..

But still…Let me be frank…I sometimes feel like I am trying to carve a niche for myself on the web …now that I have started relating to a few of my butterfly followers , out there , who are always ready to bear with all the holy stuff I write …and many others who could be silently suffering … Its big deal anyway!!

Don’t you think it is ? 

But then i know blogging also involves emotional involvement like any other human interaction.  We feel good when people respond to us and sometimes feel like losers when they dont.

But anyhow.. we need to connect with all those people who love us.  And if you think about it that way, you would certainly feel happy to take that extra time for them. 

Couldn’t hurt, right ????


 

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