Long for Longing !!

This happens to me often nowadays...I feel I am worried ...but I really wouldnt know why I feel that way...cos I would know for sure that there is nothing whatsoever to bother my smooth sail...its something at the back of my mind that keeps itching....Even when I try to find out what it is , I fail miserably..........
I suppose I  worry about things that never were, and that's the worrying part. There is nothing bothering me and that's exactly what's bothering me. Coming to think of it, I'm bothered by nothing.

When it comes to my anxiety about life, what worries me most is not the destination but ...the journey . And I feel its getting twisted as I keep moving on...
 But see...I feel  I am short of something...Well , you know, I long for nothing , in fact , being  human I feel I should change myself and start longing for something, So now what I want most is to "long for something". Wanting to have this feeling of longing so much, I have come to the conclusion that  I am longing for the feeling of longing. So my problem is I long for longing ? HA HA..Guys ..Hope you have'nt gone nuts !!!!
 You see, When I started to write this post, I "wanted to long" for something and now as I conclude, I "long for the feeling of longing", I suppose I really don't have an issue. But then again, isn't this really an issue ?


Now coming to think of this...Guys !! Don't you feel that the above said lines are a bit twisted ? I mean , not very simple ? Well..You know ...Things were simple when the creator created his creations. And I suppose we guys just did a few simple things like eating, sleeping, walking, etc at that time ?

But then....different individuals had the longing to show they were different and so they mixed the above actions, grated them ,crushed , mashed and kneaded them,  to make new actions...and of course ...thereby complicating them...!!!
God !! I wonder why I wanted to blog on something I really cannot identify.  I feel blogging is an escapism for people like me who want a little bit of privacy while going public. So...We all want to be private publicly. Well...I suppose we are all crazy. A pack of  crazy guys !!! Well....That's what makes us normal again !! Ha Ha !!

Goodbye till I come back again !!

It's funny, because 2010 has a special significance for me. I am always on the run and I think about how much faster time seems to go now and how it seems crazy that a few years back, I had fantasized about a life that I was not at all headed towards….

It's kind of every week turns out to be an eternity and it is too difficult to find a way out !!

Or is it so for everyone..??

Sometimes I feel I am tired running around with cancer patients… and then the rehabilitation programs , the awareness campaigns for which we travel miles on end, then again comes my doctoral research, the sleepless nights when I sit and write a blog while I download stuff for reviewing my thesis......

And the times I go crazy when I lose concentration in my work at the Research Centre….. and then the lecture classes I have to prepare with utmost care… the guest lectures at the university , my club activities…... seminars...oooohh !!! It really gets on my nerves ! Its just one person....doing all this !! And I wish I had wings and 10 hands to do things  and 4 more legs to stand on ,when these two legs of mine get tired !!

You can’t creep into bed at 2 am every night (Or is it morning ???!)

I feel I am going insane with all that’s going around …Chances are good that I won't make it this way for yet another month…So I thought I would give a pause to whatever is real crap and what I feel, is not essential for me right now.....

To start with, I would be giving a pause to blogging for the next couple of weeks  until I regain a fresh mind to write more crap!!

I am happy many of my dreams have come to fruitition and theres one more left to handle and that’s my research …!!! I’ve been working on it for 2 years now and I am too close to it but have’nt crossed the finishing line …So I need to take a step further there and a step back in the blog game !!So I am going to scratch me off the bloggers list for some time …

Thanks for reading my posts patiently over the past couple of weeks ( My stats tab shows me lots of you... butterflies.... visiting my blog-garden everyday ! Thanks a lot !!) .

It's exactly one month since I started blogging and its definitely cool to be blogging on like this (410 hits in a month ! Feels good !!),  and guys... if you don't hear from me for a while, it's only because good things are happening!!

Bye for now…

Love to all of you,

Butterfly Traveller.

Birthdays can change the world !! So do birthday gifts !!

I just came across this video which really impressed me. For a long time I had been confused about this issue of birthday gifts...  But this innovative and meaningful birthday gifting gives new meaning to the word "Birthday Gift ".

Something which was started by Scott Harison in September 2008 still goes on ... This is not something meant only for celebrities ....
This could be possible to everyone of us...if we can join hands and work towards it ..


To view this video click on the link below :
http://vimeo.com/1552996

http://vimeo.com/1552996


This awe-inspiring video gives an idea of how a birthday initiative by Scott Harrison became the non-profit “charity: water” which brings clean, safe drinking water to people in developing nations. Many of the good hearts involved in this project gave up their birthday celebrations to give it as a gift to those people who really need…

Well...It feels great to work for a good cause !!!

JennyPadua,Nagercoil,TamilNadu,India,JeniPadua

The beginning !!

I wish to dedicate my first blog to my butterfly friend ,
who inspired me to write ! I am deeply indebted to him for all the wisdom
he shared with me during the short span of his visit to my abode...
I will say more about this butterfly and many more butterflies later...
Now for the first butterfly story  ....

A lovely talking butterfly came floating alone through the sky and into a garden.Well..He was such an intelligent butterfly. But he had got tired soaring up the high sky , visiting drywoods and barren land. He wondered how people who lived in this garden would be. 





When he fluttered close to the garden, he saw a lonely maiden who looked so sad..He was getting curious. He wanted to know why she looked unhappy in such a beautiful garden.


So he drifted close to her. And fluttered around her with his bright wings to catch her attention. The girl felt elated looking at the tiny butterfly.




 She said,

"You are so free.. You can go wherever you want...I'd love to fly with you and sail around the way you do. It looks like it would be such fun to fly up toward the summer sun. But I have not your graceful charms, nor wings , just these two arms. I've been designed to walk around. My human feet cannot fly like you...I want to be like you.. so free !!

Then magically the butterfly started talking to the girl. He told her he too had a wish...like she did ...

He said, "What I'd love the most to do.. is walk upon God's Earth with you, I wish I were like you ...I would love to  squish the mud between my toes and be your friend and play in this garden . I'd love just once to walk around with human feet to touch the ground...
but I do not have two legs that swing, nor arms, just these two wings...

I am not destined to be on earth like you ...I am designed to fly ...to far off places where there are other little children with whom i can play for a while... but I cannot be friends with anyone ...because if I befriend them, they will capture me and put me in a glass box ...they will want to touch my wings..but then my brittle wings , they'll break... and then I would not fly ...


I do believe that you mean no harm to me . But still, I have other worlds to fly into and cannot be your friend forever. But I will sit with you till the flowers sleep and tell you lots of tales you ll love.... of distant lands I have visited ..of people you have never known ....of famine and hunger and sorrow ...which you do not seem to know.. "

And so the butterfly friend , sat with the girl and told her tales she loved and she in return told tales of her garden, her cuckoo nest...and flowers and bees and dragon flies.... She felt so happy !

And so they talked till dusk and it was time for the butterfly to say bye. He had to travel far...far away to distant lands. And so both the friends went their separate ways, in wonder and surprise, but even when they had to sadly part, both had seen God's precious gifts through the eyes of the other !!





Friends are gods blessing. Cherish all of them while they remain.
There is no tomorrow. It is always today.
So enjoy the present and whatever God provides !!

JennyPadua,Nagercoil,TamilNadu,India,JeniPadua